I am so sorry he was that ill, so terrible to feel that is your only way.
i am obviously totally in the minority but he freaked me out,
I saw him in a couple of interviews were he was totally manic and he literally made my skin crawl.
I think he could play creepy guys very well...
on a side note many years ago a shrink told me that in his opinion suicide was the biggest fuck you ever... I tend to agree...
but so sad, and for some reason men tend to choose ways that are more irrevocable than women... don't know why,