I prayed to "Jehovah" ( my subconscious mind without the influence of religious fanatics) for TTATT as well. "Miraculously" I discovered what a healthy mind, not fettered with information control, will discover. What was that? Precisely what I instinctively KNEW for years, that the WTBTS is a bat-shit crazy end times obsessed, apocyptic group of total freaking WATCHTARDS.
Glad you figured it out. You're lucky because the information is so readily available now. You won't learn TTATT after you marry young and become trapped in a life you don't want.
Keep studying the real history of the WTBTS. Watch the glassy-eyes stares of the true believers as the worship JW.ORG. Make a plan, ask for help if you need too. Start making real friends. Get the hell out of there ASAP.
DD