I think I suffered from something similar, and I am not joking.
Being raised a dub + childhood trama - needed counseling = majorly EFFED up. Before coming here, I struggled with depression and racing/ suicidal thoughts at times. There were times, because of the guilt imposed by the WTBTS, that I actually had a knife to my wrist. I used to long to end it all, or just walk away from my life, perhaps to a psychiatric care facility.
If you only have the premise that the Bible is inspired and infallible, your choices are limited. If the Bible is true, the WTBTS cannot be the truth. Eventually, I came to believe that I must be anointed. If you understand the JW mindset, then you realize the burden of that belief. This is especially true if you throw in TTATT. Imagine that GOD chose YOU and that you must die ( just coming to terms with mortality is bad enough)or be raptured. Imagine the weight of believing that YOU are supposed to reform the ORG somehow. Like all the movies, YOU ARE THE CHOSEN ONE. No pressure there!!
The GB believe it. Anyone who is "anointed" is mentally disturbed. The GB are right about that, they just forget to include themselves. Seriously, have you seen Stephen Lett?!?! It's all so weird.
Even writing this I felt a little scared for a moment. I thought, "DATA, you may have sealed your fate by sinning against the Holy Spirit." Then I thought," Well, if I deserve death for doubting things that are so hard to grasp and for refusing to worship a corporation, then so be it. If that's how GOD/Jesus are, then I don't want to be around in their universe forever. "
So I am still affected by JWism, although I am recovering. It's been about 3 years. I am getting better. Will I ever be "normal", probably not.
DD