my mom explained it to me this way, its not in the bible. [?]
its pagan, its selfish, like birthdays, you show how selfish you are by wanting presents and jehovah hates selfish people.
so i was taught to want anything is showing selfishness. and to think of yourself as being special, and none of us are special were all the same.
so, i never asked for anything, even a box of cereal! lol. anyone relate??
so brainwashed was i , growing up, about how being selfish was bad, till this day do not now how to take a compliment.
I rarely take credit for anything, i let my husband walk al over me, and everyone else for that matter.
I deny myself anything new, shopping at thrift shops,
and anything fun. i dont know how to have fun, its selfish to have fun.
i do for everyone else and expect, and get, little or nothing in return. not that I care i do for people becasue it make thier day good.
so, this is dificult to even think about doing holidays. i just cooked a turkey dinner and then when my sister posted photos on facebook of my table.
i felt compeleld to make an excuse as to why i had the dinner in the first place ,[which would be true,i dont care for the history of the day] i posted
'a day off and family what else do we do'.
and then posted a link from alternet or wired, cant recall, on how we should be ashamed to celebrate a holiday that was a reminder of how rotten back then they treated the indians.
those poor indian nations forgotten all the time.
yea, in my family Im an outlier , the odd one. that weird one with the mac book who likes to watch ted talks ,pbs nightly news and reads foreign affairs. lol.
no one so far remotely thinks like me accept my son. its no wonder im so bored, lol