Thanks to all of you for such warm replies. I live about 20 miles north west of Charlotte, NC. When I was a JW I lived in SC. When my mother started studying with JW's my daddy fought her on it. He finally gave up and let her have her way. I was a small child at that time. Daddy never did become one. After I was DF things were not too bad as Daddy did not allow them (my siblings) to shut me out, even tho they did manage to do it sometimes without his knowledge. After he passed away thats when they took over. Life was very different after that. They have tried to convert my daughters. No luck there. My oldest has been known to slam the door in JW's faces and the youngest lets her claws out. My sister has went as far as to tell my daughters that she needs to talk to them about me. It's the part of being cut off from my blood that hurts. Thats not the way it should be. I've told them that I can not believe that God would want family treated this way. When Adam and Eve ate the forbidden fruit that made everyone imperfect. I feel like if someone falls, you help them up, not turn your back. It's amazing what a brain washing cult can do. Sorry that I vented so long.