When I left I thought there was no God. How could I? All I was taught was that apart from the J-Dubs there was nothing. That lasted almost 2 years.
Then someone told me that salvation is not in an Org. or a group but in an act done. This piqued my interest, and I began to look into this Christianity thing. I started reading the Bible. The NIV cause it was easy to read, and I could get it at a regular book store, not a religious one.
My Christian experience has been marked by struggles. First, trying to deal with "stupid" Christians. Those that smile blankly and say, "Je-sus luvs you!" Secondly, trying to deal with Christains that are anti-intellectual. I began to wonder if modern Evangelical Christianity requires adherants to check their brain at the seat prior to the altar call.
I finally found a place to call home, and realize that Christianity is a thinking religion. That God wants us to love Him with our minds as well as our hearts, bodies and souls.
For those that have lost their faith in God, I understand what you have and are going through. Maybe one day God will show you what He is truly all about. That He is not some big ogre looking to smash you because you do not perform.
Best wishes on your spiritual journies.
"That's me in the corner. That's me in the spotlight, losing my religion." REM
And thank God I lost my religion.
The Big Dawg