Anyone w/anxiety disorders? Describe it.

by ashitaka 32 Replies latest jw friends

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  ashitaka

  Getting away from the hall has helped, but I've had weirdness happen, even today. I'll be looking at someone, watchng their mouths move, and I won't hear a damn thing. I'll be talking and in midsentence and trail off and forget what I was saying. People get mad and yell at me, thinking I'm playing a trick on them. Like I said, a friend thinks I'm going to have a nervous breakdown, because those are a couple of things he experienced before he had a breakdown. I do this all of the time now. Just about fifteen minutes ago, while I was getting an adjustment at the chiropractor, while lying on the table I felt like I was going to lose it in the office. It wasn't pleasant.

  It's a bizzarre hysteria that's embarrassing....it always seems to be about nothing.

  I'm afriad to go on the happy pills. Although, I feel so burnt out, I think I'd be willing to go on something if the situation doesn't improve. I do have people to care for.

  I really don't know about any of it. I have taken the week off because I'm afraid I'm going to have a breakdown if I push myself this week. I feel so exhausted. I'll see if I can get an appointment with the doc this week.

  ashi
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  FriendlyFellaAL

  I can certainly understand your reluctance to take any type of medication because I felt exactly the same way. For a man, especially, it seems to be some sort of admission that you have a weakness. One thing to remember is that you don't necessarily have to take the medications from here on out. You might be able to take them for a limited period of time and then come off of them.

  BTW, I know exactly what you mean about the feeling of a 'bizarre hysteria' - I think that's something that all of us who have been through this type of thing can relate to. Just remember that you're not alone in this. If you want to talk, my email address is available. I'd be happy to try and help in any way I can.

  Brian
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  kheli

  Professor:

  The class I took was at a mental health facility. It was quite informative. I was able to better understand the depression and its side effects. The workbook gave various scenarios of other persons who suffered from different forms of depression. It then provided activities that helped me look at myself more closely. I learned some techniques to help me cope.

  ThatSucks:

  I felt suicidal a few times, but the whole JW view of suicide made me feel too guilty to actually do anything (good for me). The therapist(s) I visited with never followed up with me. So I gave up on that method of treatment. Like you, I found ways to take my mind off of the mental anquish.

  Last summer was the breaking point. I decided that I had to do something drastic or I'd literally go insane. So it made the most sense for me to cut off the primary source of stress - being a Witness. I decided to take a "break" from the org. After I left, through much research, I realized it wasn't the "truth" anyway. The funny thing about the org is that it is selfish. It drains all of your resources, so that you have nothing left to invest into your own well-being. No wonder there are so many JWs who suffer from mental disorders. The "truth" was literally killing us.