Hey Loris
I know what you're going through. When I found out a lot of things and started asking a lot of questions they were annoyed at hell and from that day were looking for a way to DF me.
Elders would come to my door asking me if I accepted the GB as Gods representatives on earth (not even a 'hello' first). Of course, knowing what they were after I just refused to answer or lied (much to their obvious annoyance).
Then they insisted that they could not answer any questions unless I put them (and my doubts) down in writing. Yeah, right ... they just wanted some 'hard evidence' I believe. They suggested that I write to the Bethel which I didn't do.
In the end, they can twist and use their crooked rules to do what they want - they announced I had disassociated myself (which I hadn't) and the net effect is the same as disfellowshipping (but without the inconvenience for them of having to find anything that you have done wrong).
You do have one big advantage though and that is a certain amonut of publicity. The WTS is all about image and PR and they do try to avoid looking too horrible in public. I would, as people have suggested, contact the media about this and show them:
A JW cannot express any doubts or make any comments publicly even on an issue as serious as child abuse without facing sanctions, reprimand and possible expulsion. Americans are rightly annoyed at extremist hard-line regimes like the Taliban and yet they have the same type of organisation in their midst.
((((( hugs ))))) I know it's a tough time but speaking for myself, I have never been happier since I left. Make sure you do what is best for you though.