Bleep,
I think the problem you are having is a bought of what's called cognitive dissonance.. I think you came across material that you just "know" is false, yet you cannot prove it.. The reason, because what you "know" to be false is indeed true..
I'm sorry, I feel for the pain that you are going through, as most of the people here on this board have gone through that same pain at one point..
Bleep, read slowly, and DOUBLE-CHECK everything you read, not only from this board, but also from the organization itself!!! I think you will find that people here have answers to questions that the organization won't even let you ask... Does that sound like truth?
Why would truth keep you from asking questions? More importantly, if someone has the truth, shouldn't it be able to stand up to any scrutiny? So, what is the organization so afraid of that it basically tells baptized witnesses that to question it is like questioning Jehovah himself?
Bleep, it's painful, but think about that one.. Work on that critical thinking ability, and give yourself an answer to this question...
You'll find that the only answer you can come up with is the fact that the organization is hiding something... Or, the organization is trying to purport itself as Jehovah on Earth!
So, I ask again, who are you loyal to? Jehovah or an organization?
If you QUESTION the blood doctrine, for instance, are you questioning Jehovah, or the organization? Is that Jehovah's blood doctrine? If it is Jehovah's it CANNOT change, as Jehovah never lies, and he is the same always... (Did he once change any LAW in Moses time? Did he once in Moses time ever reveal 'new light' while the Israelites were under mosiac law?).. So, if the organization says that they get new light all the time, how can it come from Jehovah?
And, if it does come from Jehovah, does that mean that the predictions that the organization made about Armageddon in 1914,1918,1925, 1941 and 1975 came from Jehovah too? If the answer is yes, then the organization is a false prophet, for those predictions didn't come true.
If the answer is no, then anyone questioning those predictions were questioning MAN, and NOT Jehovah!!!!!!
The orgainization is NOT Jehovah, nor should it be treated as such. You can have a personal relationship with Jehovah without the organization. The organization is doing everything in it's power to keep you from finding this out, however, because the second you do realize this, the organization no longer has any power over you!!!!!
Answer the above questions honestly to yourself, and get back to me...