rekless
From my own experience a few years back:
I suffered with OCD & depression when I entered the truth and I ended up mixing with two brothers in the same cong' who both had "mental health issues". Outside of my imediate circle, there were at least 3 others in the same cong' who had severe problems with their health. Depression / anxiety & insomnia.
I would say, hand-on-heart, that the "truth" was of no help whatsoever for me personally. When I became aware of Christian values and searched for the true God, I was full of love and understanding for my fellow man. This in a way helped to start lifting my negativity and the general fears that were crippling my life, I saw life through different eyes (more positive eyes). I was happy to read the *Plain Truth* magazine and look into the Bible for myself and transorm my attitude towards others and put in place moral standards.
I eventually sort out JWs who I felt had a good understanding of the Bible and displayed a sound attitude by preaching their faith in earnest to others. So, I got involved with the org' ...
After studying for a while my vision of Christ & truth began to twist slowly, but surely. I started to see the world full of hidden dangers, full of demons and overlooked by a vengeful God of war. The world became dark again and my mentality latched on to this darkness. Afterall I was accustomed due to depression to seeing life through a darkened veil. The society slapped this veil over my head and my vision became surreal and I would say now - TWISTED.
Coupled with the guilt burden of having to go and knock doors and attend meetings and try and answer up and take the lead at groups and pressured to study every issue of the WT etc etc ..... well, this got too much for me.
I believe that a combination of fear & guilt, that are constant factors in org' life, eventually take their toll on any man.
I know that others who never had these health problems, after a while serving the org' ..... fell! I knew one sister (and still do) who had a breakdown and eventually DA'd herself. She was always the centre of attention in the cong' and took the lead. Eventually the pressure got too great and she snapped. It was amazing to see how the brothers walked away from her. I would have expected them to be banging on her door night and day to offer support. She had a couple of sisters chase after her, but the only real help they had to offer was - Jah will help you if you have faith & go out into the ministry, this will strengthen you. She is not bitter about this, but I feel that the body of the "truth" failed to see what was happening, before it was too late!
The burden placed by the org' is crippling in many cases and to my way of thinking - wrong!
Anyway rekless - there are many people in the world who suffer mental health problems (as you know), but I do believe that within the org' there are a vast quantity of brothers & sisters who are not properly cared for.
Afterall, I was told by a sister (a respected sister) that to seek help outside the org' was to put my mind in Satan's hands. That was really useful ;o)
/ Diz
Edited by - Dizzy Cat on 8 August 2002 6:43:21