do you feel lucky?

by SPAZnik 11 Replies latest jw friends

  • SPAZnik
    SPAZnik

    dealing with some really insecure people at work lately
    and something just occurred to me.

    You & I are *the* most psychologically tuff people I know.

    Looking back
    over all the crap
    i must say
    i feel really lucky
    cuz i've been groomed from birth
    to not let peoples
    mind fucks (to borrow a phrase coined from a friend)
    destroy me.

    I have survived A. LOT.
    Not only survived,
    but thrived.

    And I am *damn proud* of that.

    I respect myself
    very much
    for how far i've come
    and how much i've
    survived.

    And I respect YOU too...
    so many of you,
    for your intellectual, psychological
    and emotional tuffness.

    The way you forge on, bravely facing each new day,
    each challenge, each fear, each obstacle, each emotion.

    I really appreciate you being there
    invisible, but realer than real.

    i've learned so much from
    all of you.

    so much.

    about myself.
    about real friendship.
    about interdependance.

    you cyber 'postates
    are my heroes. (&heroines)

    i've never felt closer
    to any group of people.

    you are my sorority, my brethren. *sob*

    noone has ever given me
    such cause to wuv & respect
    them thru & thru
    for what they've been through
    + how they handle it
    + where they are going.

    love how real you are.
    (says the spaz of her invisible fwiends lmao)

    thank you.

    never in a million years
    would i have guessed
    that these would be
    my learnings + discoveries
    the day i typed jehovah
    into a search engine
    and stumbled onto a
    room full of aposta-people.

    i am so lucky.

    you hear that?

    LUCKY!!!

    (slight glance skyward for lightening bolts)


    SPAZ

    Edited by - SPAZnik on 25 September 2002 23:13:34

  • Gopher
    Gopher

    Spaznik,

    Oh dear Jehovah! You are so FORTUNATE you didn't get struck down by the God of the Hebrews for saying the "L" word.

    I too am glad to have found a link to this place (thank you, Randy!!). People like you and others know EXACTLY what it feels like to have survived the mind games and the domination inflicted ("man ruling man to his injury") by our "friends" at the Watchtower Society.

    Yes I feel (the "L" word).

  • Gopher
    Gopher

    Also, let me add -- those who post here seem to be the ones who have the guts to question, to speak out -- and yes in that sense they are strong. The people on this forum provide some of the best friendships I have known. It filled a large need for me when I was a newby, looking for some kind, any kind of support and understanding.

  • SPAZnik
    SPAZnik

    Amen and Amen. (lol)

    Thx fer your thoughts Gopher. You had me laffing.

    (Oh and I'm very impressed. You appear to type as fast as me.)

    goofySPAZ

  • Swan
    Swan

    For 35 years I felt miserable and confused (although I pretended not to be). Now I just feel so incredibly lucky. I am a SURVIVOR!

    Tammy

  • Mac
    Mac

    No, not tonight.

  • SPAZnik
    SPAZnik

    yay Swan!

    awww, (((((((((mac)))))))))
    i'm sorry to hear that, but thanks for your honesty. i'm glad itz just a tonight thing. i'm sorry i missed ya earlier in chat. my schedule sucks these days and i'm 'specially missin' the chatroom. wishing you lotsa warm fuzzy lucky feelings soon buddy!

  • Mac
    Mac

    Spaz,

    Thanks, you are a sweetie

    mac

  • greven
    greven

    AMEN to that!!

    I for myself are very proud of the fact that I grew up in a cult and discovered ON MY OWN that there was something very wrong with it. AFTER this discovery I started looking on the net for confirmation of my findings and found an overwhelming amount of that. And the meaning of REAL friendship, love, understanding and tolerance; not the abominations the society turns them into.

    Greven.

  • Sentinel
    Sentinel

    Spaz,

    Do I feel lucky? You bet! I am so thankful every day that I am no longer a member, nor an irrevocably damaged survivor of a cult.

    I really appreciated all your sincere thoughts. We've all come a long way, haven't we.

    Sentinel

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