I consider myself smart. Go ahead, laugh. I have a sense of humor too.
But I grew up a JW and also believed in the Bible. Although I had an issue or two, I believed the JWs had the right religion. It took Franz's book to make me realize they didn't. Then I hung onto the Bible for a few years, expecting I could find a relationship with God without the JWs. Now I believe in neither.
Considering myself fairly intelligent, I kick myself for how foolish I was. I envy those who knew it was all BS when they were in their teens or even younger.
So I thought it over. And my conclusion is, I just didn't care. Everybody has things they're good at and things they are not. Everybody has their passions and things they could care less about. And some of those, we just pick something to have something.
I think for me, I didn't care about religion. I was born a JW and my parents told me this is the true religion. This is God's book, etc. OK. And I just accepted it because I didn't really care or think about it. As a kid I was probably more interested in other things like playing. As a teen, way more interested in computers. A lot of times I would envision routines and how to get things working while daydreaming during talks or assembly parts.
I'm going to be sexist for a moment. And this is not true of all guys, but I think for the most part, guys don't care about which hygiene products we use. At least not a few decades ago. We don't want to do an extensive search and learn about the pros and cons of each brand. We just want something that works. All it takes is an ad or a friend saying "this is good" and we go with that. As long as it serves it's purpose, we can be fiercely loyal to that brand. Perhaps for decades. For no other reason than we don't care. We have to have soap or shampoo and brand X works. So there's no need to evaluate and re-evaluate it and try other things.
It doesn't mean we're stupid. Just that we've got an area of our life covered. That's taken care of, on to our true passions. Whether it be stereo systems, cars, computers, bikes, whatever. Some of which we may be experts at or geniuses with.
I think religion was that for me. I didn't want to look through all of that boring stuff to form an opinion. I assumed there was a god, so which religion? This one dad & mom? OK. That decision's done. Now I can daydream and think what I'm going to do when meeting is over.
Eventually I absorbed it sitting through all of those meetings and then I knew it. Still didn't really care, but I knew it. I might not care about the internal workings of a combustion engine, but hear about it enough, I will. Still won't care, but I will know.
I even defended the religion based on the facts I absorbed. But I didn't question because I wasn't that invested. Like a hair product, I was told it was the best, so I went with it.
And I think I can find evidence of this in my life. I was never happy about meetings except to see my friends or slide shows. I never wanted to go in service. I never wanted to do home Bible study. I often complained that I knew all that stuff already, so why go to meeting? Outside of meeting, my life was focused on whatever was going on. School, work, friends, etc. I didn't think about meeting or service except for planning around them and until it was time to get ready.