Sad about the past

by Gorbatchov 22 Replies latest jw friends

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  LoisLane looking for Superman

  Gorby, (Hugs) to you dear friend.

  My vote is to cry and recognize what you have been through.

  It is hard to look back. There were some good times. There were bad times. For me, it helped posting here. For 2 years I ranted and (yes) cussed and vomited out all sorts of situations I was privy to. I am a nice person that wants happiness and kind hearted people in my life. I am an adult. I am in charge now. Not WT. Not 7 uneducated men pulling ideas out of who knows where. I grieved loss of life time friends, until I realized they were JW drones, and I do not choose to associate with any drones.

  Yes, I hear you Gorby. Are you missing your parents or missing the sweet little boy you used to be that was lied to, big time?

  It hurts to be swindled and WT did swindle all of us.

  Recently, I have been thinking of how very happy I am and how pleasant life out of WT is. And then I had a new thought. My life now, is how normal people live their life. Pleasantly. Doing what they want to do.

  Gorby, I hope you can make time to post more and let us know how your life was. We are here to support you.

  All the very best to you Gorby and your family!

  LL
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  rebel8

  Those kind of days suck, don't they? Take care.
  
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  snare&racket

  It's natural to feel stung having been conned. It's natural to feel pain after such loss. It's natural to want to cry when realising we experienced what most thankfully will not, but leaves us asking why?

  But Gorby my pal, my buddy, my man.... We got out. That, statistically makes us some lucky mother-duckers...

  Quacking hell, it doesn't erase what we had to endure, but it makes us the right side of the fence...TODAY.

  Gorby I have these days too, I feel for you as they are not pleasant. But by far, the average day is us getting up, going to work, getting on with life, forgetting the chains that once tied us down,

  Constant studying of shallow, ignorant, controlling literature.

  Years of repetitive meetings with developments and no intellectual or spiritual satisfaction,

  No free thought, heart or mind.

  No right to ask, question and never, never, never allowed to doubt.

  A lifetime of blunted emotions and biological wants, the ignoring of nature.

  The shunning and heartless punishment for nothing more than normality.

  Hours, days, months, years going door to door with a very defensive version of our beliefs, sanitised for public consumption.

  It was decades of dark turmoil, ignorance and hunger for a refreshing source of information, answers and logic. It was decades of emotional torture. It was decades of unnatural, unhealthy, dictatorial, unquestionable loyalty to an ORGANISATION.

  It's normal to look back and feel pain for all this, it's normal to look back and think of the good times and good people we miss.

  Whether this comforts or pains you Gorby, the religion we were in simply no longer exists. New name, new leaders, new doctrines, new hopes, Jesus Christ on a bike they even have a new bible!

  We value you here Gorby, we are glad to have you as one of us, we are lucky.

  We here at this site and sites like it, are the emergency crew escorting and embracing those leaving a burning down. toxic, dangerous, building. A building rife with unnatural control, financial greed, prophetic failures, rampant paedophilia, and oxygen sucking doctrines and beliefs.

  They and we need you here, doing what you do..... We all need each other here doing this,
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  disposable hero of hypocrisy

  So eloquently put snare. I think I just fell in love with you a little bit. Don't tell my wife.
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  Gorbatchov

  Thanks all,

  Good to know I'm not alone having this very sad feelings.

  Thanks!

  G.
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  The Searcher

  Gorby - you are now in a "paradise" - looking out on the disgusting world of JW.CON!

  Don't look back in anger & regret - look forward to what your better life offers, and rejoice at what you have escaped from!

  Just slap those nasty little negative feelings in the face with the heap of benefits you've gained, and love life.

  I am so grateful for every new day with my freedom.
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  My Name is of No Consequence

  I too find myself in the nostalgic mood sometimes.

  I remember going out in service with my anointed grandmother and she just wowed me at the doors, even at a young age. I remember stopping at a certain bakery for break whenever we had territory out in the country. I remember this old lady screaming at my mother and I at the door.

  I find myself looking around at everyone that I love and it hurts me deeply that they are getting old and will die. Most of my family did not go to college or save up for the future. There was no need to, right? I guess I was lucky because I did both.

  My nostalgia quickly turns to anger and resentment. Somebody has got to pay for the untold number of lives that this "religion", as well as others like it, has ruined.
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  JW_Rogue

  Six years spent studying the Revelation book, now most of it will be rewritten for the next generation of of JW kids. It's weird to think that we were studying that book just a couple of years before the WT joined the UN as NGO. Trying to memorize the timelines and explanations for the last days, making sure to give an impressive answer to show what a smart kid I was. I had doubts and questions at that time but let them be suppressed by the need to "do what is right" and "not be worldly".
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  oppostate

  I know how you feel Gorby, I used to miss the fun with the bookstudy crowd after the meeting and sharing goodies and stories. But mostly now I'm just disgusted, ever more so as the GB 2.0 continues their brazen money grab and rebranding efforts, throwing the older folks aside now that they're little use or profit for them. They're a bunch of corporate inhuman jerks, and that makes the all the sadness turn to anger.
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  TheListener

  Great thread! I remember all the meetings and bookstudies and how serious I took it all. The revelation book was so deep but made so easy to understand by the society. I was so impressed and felt I was a real bible student. I felt pity for the worldly people I knew and would always wonder how I could get them to listen to me. But like a lot of witnesses I didn't really try super hard to convert people because I was nervous and maybe a bit embarrassed by some of the teachings. Weird mix, on one hand I totally believed everything but on the other I was sort of embarrassed and hid the fact I was a dub at work and school.

  I get sad because I feel that if I was a better husband my wife would have folowed me out. It is probably not true but it's its a feeling I,sill have to live with. At least my kids are out.