I didn't lead a double life up to me ceasing to believe the Witnesses have the truth. I could never honestly understand how anyone would do this: how can anyone behave hypocritically if they sincerely believed the witness religion to be the true religion, surely God sees everything? It would be pointless exercise to just carry on if you were going to die at Armageddon anyway? I saw so many people that were like this and I thought that they were just wasting their time carrying on the pretence. The Elders that I know that have told barefaced lies to save their own skin and protect their status - I just think it defies logic and reason that they carry on unrepentantly year on year.
Now that I am satisfied that the Witnesses are not God's own chosen people, I really don't have any conscience about living a double life - I know I'm leaving, and my decision is made and there is no turning back for me.
A double life is not for me. That is why this fading is so hard. Fortunately, I have not had to lie to anyone and I am leading my life according to Bible principles as I always have.
My friends and I did at one point lead double lives. But, after a little while, the guilt got the best of us, and we became quite zealous. Full believers, with our "weak" times very much behind us.
One of them left the org, I believe. Moved away, and started modeling and dating a "worldly" guy. Two of them got baptized, but as far as I know, still leading "double lives". I only talk to one of them, but the fact that we are still friends, and she knows that I am a lesbian, proves that she is not a "true" believer.
That "double life" shit. Made for some very fun times, but way too much baggage.
i sure did lead a double life. i was a baptized unmarried witness who was living with and having sex with my baptized fiance until after we got married and i found out that he had impregnated two females.
i think that most j.w.'s lead double lives. they just don't talk about it.
