Mystery of life, or my ramblings

Vivamus

I have been thinking back on the moment my grandma died. It's a strange thing, seeing someone pass away. It truly made me think on the meaning of life. What a cliche, I know, lol. It's so weird, because I still feel as if she is alive, I know, logically I know she isn't, but at the same time it's hard to comprehend this. It's an image that is vividly sealed in my memory, I can't seem to get it out of my mind. Seeing her, gasping for breath, and than to see that last grimace, for about two minutes, death catching up on her, and than nothing. Her body still being warm, but no life in it anymore. Weird. witnessing that, made me feel so small, and so ignorant. At the same time I feel as if the world is beyond comprehension, but also, it made me feel as if the final mystery has been dissolved for me. Death is a strange thing, we live for so many years, link our minds and lives with others, and than we pass on. Why? Oh well, I can see why witnesses jump on the occasion to convert people who had just had a loss. It would be quite attractive to have all the answers at this point. But for me, personally, I like to keep that huge questionmark. It makes life so very precious. If nothing else, this experience has made me appreciate life even more. We live, we love, and we share. We live forever in the memories of those we leave behind. Up to us to shape those memories. And it's up to us to be in peace with the rest of the world. "Today is a good day to die". No, don't worry, I'm not dying, at least not that I know of, lol. But if I can say that of each day in my life, it'll mean I have no regrets. I try to be as honest as I can be to others, and my friends and family know they can count on me. Should I die now, I do believe most will remember me with love and positive feelings. If that's all the inheritance we leave behind, that's more than I could wish for. Okay, enough of my ramblings, I'll go have fun now.

Edited by - Vivamus on 29 November 2002 7:17:2

Francois

Perhaps it's true that we only cast off this mortal coil and move on - move our true essence, our soul - on to the next step in our spiritual evolution toward the level of perfection that will allow us to migrate to the center of all things and the presence of the Absolute Reality who began our career of mortal evolution eons ago.

Of course, grandma will be there on the next level, waiting to show you around. May it all be so.

outbackaussie

Viv, I can relate to your feelings on being present when a loved one dies. I was with my hubby's grandfather when he died. It is very hard to describe the peace that came over his body with those last breaths. So much pain was wiped from his flesh. It was hard to see that pain temporarily transfered to those he left...his wife and children and grandchildren. Maybe that is why many people seek answers to those questions you refer to. Pain is a strong motivator.

I don't have the answers either LOL but I have stopped asking the questions, I now subscribe to the Athiest School of Non-belief

onacruse

"To fear death, my friends, is only to think ourselves wise, without being wise: for it is to think that we know what we do not know. For anything that men can tell, death may be the greatest good that can happen to them: but they fear it as if they knew quite well that it was the greatest of evils. And what is this but that shameful ignorance of thinking that we know what we do not know?"
Socrates

Or, perhaps in modern vernacular: "Ain't been there and done that."

And, as others have said: "Not to live is worse than death."

But I still do miss my younger brother.

Craig

Vivamus

((Ona)) I don't think we'll ever stop missing them.

Qui mortem metuit, quod vivid perdit id ipsum

He who fears death, even loses the life he has ~ Cato

deddaisy

It's an image that is vividly sealed in my mind

Viv, this takes the words out of my mouth. I was alone with my mom when she took her last breath and it is just as you say. I tend to side with Francois's school of thought. It seems we sometimes meet people that we feel we've known before, hopefully we meet up with people again in another time and place. aahhh, but what is time?

very nice post and comments.

peace, christina

Navigator

I'm with Francois and Deddaisy on this one. My Dad had a very peaceful transition and was really looking forward to it. He felt that he had done what he needed to do on this side and was ready to move on. He had had a great deal of pain leading up to his death and as someone has pointed out, pain is a very powerful motivator.

Mystery of life, or my ramblings

Vivamus

Francois

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