Welcome and enjoy your stay on JWD!
I myself have never been disfellowshipped. It must be hard for you. The companionship that you will find on this board will help wonders. Since you mentioned that you were browsing thru before you posted is an indication of how candid and sincere we all really are.
Continue to post and let us know what develops.
Alligator Wisdom (aka Brother "NOT Exerting Vigorously")