I was thinking about this the other day, and really things just don't make sense to me since leaving the borg.
Being JW's we are told to fear the demons, they are there just to get us away from God. Don't buy from yard sales, don't watch demonized movies, don't look at porn because demons love that. Don't play with games, or have your fortune read , because you can summon the demons .
Why is it so easy to summon the wicked spirits and yet when we pray to God on our hands and knees we don't hear a word?
Maybe it is just me, maybe God does speak to others, or show some real power , but Ihavent really felt it. The good things that have happend to me , could have just happened anyway,not just because I prayed. Seems to me most of my prayers were really unanswered, or I was allowed to be "tested" ,to the full. Kind of like , being left alone to see how long I could take something.
The witnesses say that Jehovah blesses them all the time, with things like strength , good field service weather, a little window cleaning job to get them to the convention. But where are the real communication or Holy Spirit they preached so much?
Why does it seem that God ,Jesus or the angels do not help us, do not answer prayers with a soft voice, do not give us a little show of their true power?
It is strange to me, because a couple of times in my life, I had things happen to me that could only be explained as some kind of spirit activity. I can't say it was a good spirit or really a bad. But it was something. At the time, I was sure it was demons, there was no other explanation.
It just seems that is the evil spirits can access us so easily, sometimes without our provocation, then why the heck can't an angel just let us see their true power just once? Would that make faith too easy? Is it some kind of test maybe? It doesnt seem like too much to ask from God , to show himself to us in more ways than he does , if he loves us like a Father , wouldnt he do that for us?
I don't believe it is because we are too sinful for these perfect heavenly creatures to approach us. In the Bible they did it all the time, there were miracles, visison, and people were filled with true holy spirit. I never felt as a JW any divine power , only my own strength really, from determination.
Scarey thing is ,,,,,,, since leaving the borg,,,,,, I don't feel any spirits one way or the other. But maybe that is telling me something there too. I am really thinking that God, doesnt have a whole lot to do with us while we are on earth, I only hope he will when we die.