The repercussions of my argument with my mother on the phone the other week are starting to make themselves felt. Let me be clear: I've been disfellowshipped from the org for two years now. I'm loving my freedom of thought.
So I was talking to my mom [still in the borg] and started expressing myself on various subjects on which I disagree, or at least see room for philosophical "wiggle room" with the Society's viewpoints. Things like the Trinity, or holidays, or whatever.
My mom freaked on the phone and told me that since I was disfellowshipped for immorality [true] that essentially, I was acting out of hurt and fear instead of having reasoned opinions on anything.
Later, my dad wanted to meet me for dinner [odd, since he is still in the org] and we had a long talk, wherein essentially I denied that the Society was God's organization and that the Bible is the completely inspired word of God. I simply cannot hold to those opinions in the face of the facts. I don't think the Bible is a deliberate lie, but it simply the very human record of contact with the Divine.
Anyway, the upshot is that this elder from my past hall called me and wants me to call him back. What is that all about? Is it true that the elders are swarming the field Nazi style? I mean, I really like this guy, he was one of the only ones who ever tried to help me, and I love him for it. I'm wondering if I should call him back, or not bother. I'm scared that they'll talk me into going back to the hall, and I really don't want to go. My disfellowshipping was the lesson in reality that taught me never to give any man power over my faith in God.
What do you guys think I should do? Talk to him? Meet with him? See what he wants? Hide? Track down the merciless pricks at Bethel that work these horrors upon us and smite them most mightily with a sword concealed at my right side, while they sit and take their ease upon their privy chambers? [ok, that was a joke]
ARGH! Oh, cursed spite, that ever I was born to set it right.
CZAR of the panicking thespian class