Hey Utopian......... sounds like you are making wonderful progress. You remind me of just what I did when I got out of JW,,,,,,,, I was frantic to get to the real truth of the bible , but didnt know which one to choose from.
I was out of town, hubby was working , and we decided we were not going back. But in my mind I had to believe something, I had to find some kind of truth.
I ran to Wal-Mart in Dodge city, Ks, and got two bibles. NIV and American Standard Version. I like the NIV the best. Hubby has the Wycliff bible but it is a study bible with footnotes and explainations. Many say it is a great study aid. My father in law is a Moffit praiser...he lost it in a fire, and I am hoping to find him another one.
When I started reading the Bible back then,,,,,,,,, things started coming off of the pages and it was like all these years I read this book of the bible or that one, and never saw what I was just reading.
Something tonite reminded me of my love of the bible , my faith , my God, and all that I have lost. I know I never had it, the truth that is,,,,,,,but nonetheless , I miss my faith very much. I miss the spirtiual side of me that is craving understanding.
I like what Intro said, to use your heart and mind ......... I havent done that in bible reading. I was too afraid to open my heart because I felt I did that with JW and it only hurt me. But maybe it is time to try again,,,, at this different phase of my recovery, maybe I am ready to start reading again.
Someone told me once when I decided to start cover to cover bible reading, and failed, ( I got pissed off somewhere around Gen. 6, the flood and stopped..lol) to start you bible reading in John.
I am not sure why. But I guess maybe it is because it is talking about Jesus so much and not so much destruction as the first chapters of the bible talk about. I think maybe John gives up more hope than Gen.