I left the borg 13 years ago, at age 22. After my wife had died of cancer, I started seeing a "worldly" female. (I was teetering in the borg at the time.) Well we ended up becoming very intimate. After having been assimilated for 20 of my 22 years I felt the need to confess. Well it ended up b4 a judicial committee, during which I was informed that I would never see my wife in the "new system" unless I broke ties with my female friend(my wonderful wife of 12 years now), faced my discipline, and threw myself into the "kingdom" effort. I had to stop and think about what kind of loving God would empower men to say such things. The answer was NONE! Men empowered these men, NOT GOD. Of course it has taken me 13 years to come to a peace with myself and more importantly with God. This peace now allows me to visit wonderful sites like this, where I can finally see that there is many more like me. Don't get me wrong I'm not sure one can ever fully recover all that is lost to their theocraptic indoctrination, aka: brainwashing. I have a dificult time knowing how to deal with my mother, she is still "in the truth". I was never formally D/F or D/A that I know of, so she still stays in contact. This is ok I suppose, but sometimes I just want to slap her and scream WAKE UP!
I look forward to getting to know others here. It's been a long road but I finally feel like a Forgiven One. Forgiven by both myself and God, for turning my back on Him after I turned my back on them.
I would also like to go on with my story, but it is getting late. I will post more as time goes by.
Edited by - Forgiven One on 15 January 2003 0:36:20