Thanks OTWO.
it's good to have an exit strategy.
Wasn't much of one really. Most of my mums non-JW family are here in Ireland so i knew if I needed material help etc I could ask them. Thankfully didn't.
So the plan was to move to Ireland under the pretense that I was helping where the need was greater and eventually fade. Not long after moving over I was enjoying life as a young 20 -21 year old fella should do but quickly realised it was a small town and community and I was going to get rumbled.
So I took control of the situation and DA'd. Many years later looking back at it I probably would just move again to where I wasn't known and fade that way to avoid shunning but hey it is what it is and i have no regrets leaving the JW's.