Welcome , I like your nick name,,,.
My mother committed suicide when she was just disfellowshipped for 4 months or so, she had been addicted to pain pills for years and went to rehab. In rehab she started smoking, so they nailed her for that. During this whole time my elder dad was screwing around with a much younger sister in our congregation and their marriage ended in divorce , she was truly heartbroken, thrown away by my dad, thrown away from her religion(they d/f her thru the mail) they never tried to help her . She had been a faithful witness for 16 yrs or so, and even was at deaths door standing up for the blood issue a year before.
She was so full of guilt and sorrow, and the feeling that God would never take her back, she thought she had committed the unforgivable sin. I thought she was getting better,,,,,,,, I tried to help but she needed more help than a teenager could give her.
I am bitter about her suicide and I hate the WT for their lack of love. I know they didnt actually kill her but they did kill her soul. They did that by throwing her away like trash. Never calling , never trying to help a truly sick person. She had many emotional problems due to something that happened to her as a child , all I know it had to do with her mom, she never told me more. But the elders didnt care , anyway they arent trained to help people like her , in fact she was not even released from the doctors care. They never once went to see her in rehab, or send a card.
At her funeral, not a one of them showed up. Not one witness was there. My husband and I were both active witnesses and they didnt even have the heart and love to show up for our sakes. THere again,,,,,, there were no cards, letters, phone calls, or even a flower arrangement, not even secretly did anyone do that. My mom was a good hearted woman and always gave the shirt off her back, literally if someone said they liked it. She was loved by many. But so many were afraid to go to her funeral, i found out years later, because of pressure from the elders. We had to get a justice of the peace to do her funeral talk.... no one would even say a few words for her.
Sorry to drag all of this out again and again, but since you are new,,,,,,, I thought I would tell my story again. In away coming to this board and telling her story,,,,,,has let me grieve in a way the WT would never let me grieve. So this last year that I have been here I have opened my soul of all the pain of never being able to freely speak her name without making someone uncomfortable. Here, everyone listens,,,,,,,, and are the best support systems around.
I hope too, you find a place of peace over your friends suicide,,,,,,,,, and it is DAMN alright to be angry ,,,,,,,and this is just another way that the WT has broken people to the point of no return. They have alot to answer to one day........at least I hope they do.