Terrifically moving account...... even an old grump like me teared up. I also agree with Xanthippe, who always posts with feeling and sensible thoughts, that you need to continue to heal and keep growing, at some point the healing process starts if you let it. Poking at an open wound makes it difficult to heal.
Good luck finding Riley and please let us know how things progress. You were very brave and very caring........ you saved that girls life when no one else had the courage to step forward. Hopefully it will be a turning point for both of you.