do you have feelings of hopelessness and fear for not having a religion?
do you envy happy Jehovah Witnesses and living their lives carefree?
by 060702015 37 Replies latest jw friends
do you have feelings of hopelessness and fear for not having a religion?
do you envy happy Jehovah Witnesses and living their lives carefree?
No, no hopelessness and fear at all, why would I feel that? I'm loving life and having a great time.
You must have been in a different congregation than me, I don't remember many of them being happy at all. One elder in the last congregation beat his wife and killed himself when his children took her away from him in fear for her life. Yeah, don't remember the happy.
Nope, never been happier in my life. In fact, I was depressed and in a very, very, very dark place with no love for myself being a JW. Leaving literally saved my life. Can't even really express how meaningful that was for me.
Most JW's don't have a carefree life. There are too many rules and regulations. It's being in an abusive relationship.
I envy no one. If there's something I want or improvements I can make to better myself and my situation, I take responsibility and make it happen. I can do that now that I'm flying free.
Carefree? I'm an outsider looking in, never been one and the organization and lifestyle makes me feel claustrophobic, wanting to run for my life.
O6072015, having read your other threads, it appears to me you are suffering from depression. Please seek professional counseling and get some help for this, there are many things that can be done to help you. I don't think going back to the JWs is going to help you. It may seem like they are happy, but for many, that is an act they put on when they are at the Kingdom Hall, the reality of life at home is much different. Of course some people are happy as JWs, but I suspect they are people that would be happy anywhere, some of us just were not born with the right brain chemistry for that, in which case being a JW just makes you more miserable.
If you want a religious experience there are many churches that can fill a spiritual need without the guilt and burdens of life as a Jehovah's Witness. I personally like the UCC (United Church of Christ) also called Congregational. Their motto is that "wherever you are in life's journey, you are welcome here" and they mean it. But before you do that you simply must address your depression. Please, please call a professional counselor or psychologist.
At one time I did feel worried that I did not have a religion. Now I don't. It just isn't necessary for me and makes me feel very unhappy. Religion just isn't my thing.
Sometimes when you are depressed, it seems like everyone else but you is happy and having a good life.
But, depression lies. I agree with LisaRose. Please get evaluated for depression. It is treatable, and once your mind clears, you can then better make the big decisions in life like Religion.