Wow!
I had no
idea there were other people who have also lost everything except their skivvies.
Thanks for all the encouraging words. It really helps to know that others are
making it after losing an entire life of hard work. It kind of gives me a boost to start
rebuilding my life.
You all seem
so confident. I guess I’m still freaked out with everything that has happened.
Since all this has happen in my 60s I feel like someone has locked me in a room
with a bunch of explosives and all I see is a timer that’s telling me I only
have 3 seconds to diffuse it.
This is
hitting the bottom without the safety net to catch you. Of course there was
never a safety net to begin with, but it helped “To Think” there was such a thing
as a safety net. I was always told Jehovah was there to catch you so I had no
problem executing fancy- deadly somersaults in mid-air and hearing the jw
audience hip-hooray -what great faith this brother has.
I understand
the encouragement to turn this elder in. The problem, and I’m embarrassed to
admit this, is that when I was an elder and totally believed I had the truth,
there were many times inactive brothers and sisters would come to us elders and
accuse an individual elder for being involved in some indiscretion. In fact
immoral is a better word. But anytime some accusation against an elder
happened, we would always side with the elder. The inactive or regular-weak
publisher was always dismissed as “Not thinking straight”.
That
experience is actually not a big deal. I served close to the Juarez-Mexico
Border and many elders in the U. S. side were assigned to give talks and help the
congregations in Juarez from time to time. Some of the stuff going on in the Juarez
congregations during the drug wars is just unbelievable. We had instructions from the Society to tell
no one in the U. S. what the brothers and sisters were going through in Juarez.
There was a lot of kidnapping of young sisters and elders involved in the drug trade. We were always told to trust in Jehovah and we fell for it. Now I look back and
realize how freaking lucky I am to still be alive.
Anyway thanks
for the encouragement.