Hi bx,
I have to echo everything that Winston said so well. I remember, one of the last
years that I was active someone turned over a study to me and I just couldn't
keep it up. I felt guilty, here I was trying to convince this woman to give up her lucrative job
(she was a bartender) and marry a man she was unsure of just because they were engaged
and lived together (I couldn't get the words out, the pioneer who sat in on the study
was happy to do so)
I was unhealthy already so it wasn't too hard to get out of the study. Now I know
why I felt so awful at the time: I was already on my way out, I just didn't realize it yet.
I think that if you do it now, and he gets baptized, and then you leave, you'll carry
that guilt with you for a long time.
Say you had a ticket on a plane, and you're the first in line to go down the
jetway onto the plane. As you went to board, you looked out the window and realized one of
the engines was hanging off the wing.
The flight is full, and as you back away from the door deciding not to get on, someone runs
up to you and says "Please can I have your ticket? I have to get home to see my family."
Would you give it to him? Or would you say hey, you don't want to get on this plane." ?
Then go about making sure that no one else got on the plane either?
I know it may seem helpful to your keeping up your facade as you wait for your family.
But why personally add any more lives to the list of those destroyed by the WTS? I think you'll be sorry later. If I were you I'd get busy, real quick...too busy for that study.
Good luck...you're in a tough spot and I feel for you.
Es
