I find most Theist arguments to be either confused or dishonest at best. And most of them I regard with mild annoyance. But there is one track of thinking that is so stupid it really gets under my skin: When, in order to try and prop up "faith", people try and tear down reason and critical thinking. Just posted this on a comment thread elsewhere and thought it'd be nice to store it somewhere that I could readily get to it for the future.
Faith isn't a pathway to truth. I hope that one day you will come to understand that what a person believes - matters. That our beliefs are the gate keepers of our actions. And, as such, we should have good reasons for believing the things that we believe.
There is no position - no matter how absurd - that cannot be justified by invoking "faith". Because faith is empty. Faith is the answer people give when they don't want to understand things for themselves. It's the answer they give when they can't be bothered to do their homework. It is the epitome of intellectual laziness. The foundation of mental atrophy.
However, asking questions (or philosophy as you put it) is the complete opposite. Asking questions is a pathway to truth. It is honest and intellectually rigorous. It makes you disciplined in your thinking - and by extension - disciplined in your actions. It allows us to put our good intentions to positive use.
When I left organized religion I didn't lose my faith. Rather, I found my curiosity. And I hope that one day you will too. I hope that you find the courage to start asking questions. For it is far better to have questions you can't answer than answers you can't question.