My PIMI wife, at the time, was the same way after the assemblies though. The 6 hour brainwashing session completely transformed her from a ho hum publisher to a fully ratcheted JW. She get all "built up" with the experiences told from the platform, most of which are made up or severely embellished. She would come off this spiritual high to an extreme low. She felt as if she wasn't doing enough and she hated herself for it. It really f-ed with her mind and I think it made her manic and/or bipolar swings worse. They would hold some publisher up on a pedestal with their personal struggles and issues, but praise them for their dedication and work to "further the kingdom message." This is suppose to make everyone feel as if they aren't doing enough and can do more. I remember a story of a single mom with 3 boys that worked full time, regular pioneered, had to have regular bi-weekly medical treatments, and took care of her elderly parent. At the time, my wife didn't work, didn't pioneer, had good health, and did nothing all day. In order to make herself feel better, a lazy person, like her, would build herself up by tearing me or others down on the drive home. I was fully PIMO and took the verbal beat down after every 1, 2, 3, or 4 day assembly for every ride home. The GB know exactly how to push the buttons to make the R&F do more. They fizzle out after weeks or months.....in time to have another assembly and push them again. This was a leading cause in me becoming POMO, divorcing her, and being Dfed. She is still fully PIMI but without a punching bag.