About a year and a half ago, I lost a really dear friend to a cult...I didn't know much about it, or what it was called, but it was some sort of new age/yoga cult.
I am mentioning this because I saw her today. Her eyes were very happy to see me, but out of her mouth came lies. For example 'I am just being polite'. She talks to me as long as the topic is not at all personal. And I cannot remember the last time she called me by my name.
For a while, I thought maybe something I did upset her.
But thinking back, she was ditching some 'friends' to spend time with me. She seemed to be getting over inhibitions that bordered on agoraphobia and/or claustrophobia. And there was another inhibition she told me about...sex and masturbation...she said she was abstaining for personal reasons. But who ever abstains from those for purely personal reasons? Not even Gandhi did that for personal reasons.
But as she opened up to me, she started to feel free to talk about sex; she told me 'hey, sex is not shameful'. And she even let her hair down once when she was with me, something that I had never seen her do before.
She laughed once about how the group she was spending time with was 'kind of like a cult' but at the time I thought little of it.
I think I encouraged her all I could. She still seems to like to be around me, but she doesn't want to put any effort into a friendship.
It saddens me, especially since my father has recently tried to accuse me of being 'an apostate'.
Well well well
People cannot think for themselves.
Should we take this personally?
cellomould