Hi stuckinarut2,
>>Just wondering if anyone has gone back to a meeting out of curiosity? (perhaps to an area far from your old KHall where you know no one)<<
I left the faith in 2007. Since then, I have attended the memorial each year, with the exception of one year. I don't attend for curiosity reasons, but, rather as a way to reach out to my mother-in-law and another older JW lady who was like a mother to me while I was growing up.
We moved from North Phoenix, AZ to Chandler, AZ three years after we left the faith. In this part of the city, know one knows us. When we show up at memorial a few come over and chat. We're friendly, tell them the basic story -- left the faith -- but have family in Canada who remain JWs. As of spring of 2010 my JW status is "disassociated by action" (action=openly celebrating Christmas). Thus I understand why some JWs who know my circumstances might shun me. However, I personally don't believe in shunning, so I ignore such attempts at labeling the best I can.
Last year I went back up to Canada and attended there. That was a bit of a different experience, since folks there knew me growing up and have heard stories about us leaving the faith. But again, I just was friendly and said hello and chatted with those who came by. I will make the trip again this year. I'll keep going for as long as my mother-in-law and friend are alive. They're both up in age.
I am always impressed by the contrast between the Kingdom Hall experience compared to Valley Unitarian Universalist church I currently attend. The music and singing at VUU is much more vibrant than the JW experience. It is also now so odd to hear the JW elder make such earnest statements of belief, that are so clearly rooted in nothing but fantasy and wishful thinking. As to belief, I'm an atheist, but recognized a few years ago, that I'm kinda religious too. The UU faith is based on 7 principals and rejects the idea of dogma and thus accepts atheists right along side believers.
Unlike so many Ex-JWs, my personal experience as a JW was generally positive. I completely understand why some would never set foot in a Kingdom Hall again. I have little respect for the organization and it's leadership, who posses both the knowledge and power to address issues within the religion. In contrast I still see many of the individuals in a positive light.
Cheers,
-Randy