Rape by Elder led to a life of sexual abuse

Asian sister

I was raped by two brothers when I was 12 in Vancouver. one was an elder who I trusted beyond belief and the other was his 18 year old son, who I had a huge crush on. It changed my life forever, I became a slut, sleeping with every brother I could of which there was an endless supply.

It was not until i met my husband that I slowed down in my sexual activity. Before I met him I was sleeping with 2-3 brothers everyday, sometimes even while out in field service. Since I met my husband he is my main partner but he realizes i have an addiction to sex so once a month he allows me to sleep with anyone I want for one day only. so now I only sleep with 4 regular brothers every third Saturday. The 4 brothers are all married so there is no jealousy or fear of them outing me and my husband to the elders.

it has been very difficult to keep this side of my life a secret, especially in Vancouver where all the elders so so self righteous and nosy. But ironically its because of an elder i have this problem to begin with.

Biahi

Honey, you need help, counseling.

Asian sister

i have tried counseling and spent many years in therapy. the physiologist is the one who recommend i tell my husband and try and work out a compromise for my desires. I love my husband and didnt want to hurt him so i was going behind his back for the first 2 years with total strangers and it was getting scary dangerous.

Half banana

Asian sister, so sorry to hear how you were raped as a child and with such consequences. Life must be difficult for you.

The first thought which comes to my mind is how do you square your life style with still being a JW? Not that I would recommend you to remain one but do you take it seriously? If you do then this only compounds the difficulty of being yourself but publicly being a believer.

Without wishing to stress you further, I would appreciate your thoughts on this matter but only if you feel comfortable in explaining.

Asian sister

thank you Half Banana for asking.

it is very difficult to resolve me beliefs with my double life. it is a constant struggle but after talking to my husband we decided that Jehovah is all knowing and he knows my heart is firmly on his side and doing right by him, BUT my sex addiction is to the extreme and if we didnt come up with this plan i would have left the truth or worst died in a alleyway trying to get men to have sex with me.

this way the men are clean, it happens in my own home, im not cheating behind my husband back. plus we pray for Jehovahs love and forgiveness . i also pioneer very often to atone for my lifestyle.

ohnightdivine

Hi Asian sister,

I'm sorry to hear about your experience early in life. While stories like this are quite a shock to me, I know that many other JWs are struggling in many many ways I cannot imagine.

I hope you get the help that you need. We are here to listen to you.

By the way, I notice that we are both from the same continent..

Warm regards,

OND

Rape by Elder led to a life of sexual abuse

Asian sister

Biahi

Asian sister

Half banana

Asian sister

ohnightdivine

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