Last Night's Nightmare

Robdar

I woke up with my heart racing this morning.

I had an awful dream that I had gone home to visit my parents and that everybody in my former cong came bye to say hi. In my dream, all the men had on suits and all the women had on floral dresses. Red, blue, pink, green, aqua, all these different floral designs and matching shoes too. They were everywhere. They had decided to get me to go out in service with them.

I was handed a bookbag, some magazines and a dress to put on. I franically looked around for other apostates for support. I saw only one, Veni, and she jokingly told me not to blow her cover because she was going to do a "little witnessing" to the house holders about what was really going on in "Jehovah's organization".

In my dream, I wound up hiding in a closet with a 3 or 4 cats. And they were all talking rather loudly. I was afraid that the JWs would overhear them talking to me and would know where to find me. The last thing I remember, before I woke up, was promising the cats that if they would be quiet, when everybody left, I would get them all a kitty treat.

The last time I went out in service was 1978. I became inactive that year. What I find surprising is that after all these years, I can still and do have nightmares about the JWs and sometimes about Armageddon.

How about you? Do you still dream of JWs past or present? What about Armageddon? Ever wake up from scary apocalyptic dreams? How long have you been out of the org? Got any ideas on what might be causing my nightmares or any way to prevent them?

Any advice would be appreciated. Any dreams you wish to share might be good reading......

Love,

Robyn

cruzanheart

I haven't had any remarkable dreams lately, but Jackson dreamed about a ghost coming to get him and for the first time he took control of his dream, as his daddy told him to do, and told himself to dream up a squadron of Bionicles, which beat the tar out of the ghost. Ah, to be 7 again!

Cool dream, though, Robdar. Sounds like you still have some unresolved issues about the Borg. I think a healthy thing would be to tell yourself that next time you will come out of the closet and confront the JW's and tell them what you think of them. You'll wake up feeling empowered if you can do that.

Love,

Nina

Robdar

Cruzanheart,

Good advice. I didn't mention it, but in my dream I also told my mother that I didn't want to go because I didn't believe the doctrine anymore. She just looked at me.

After reading your advice, I can see some of the symbology much more clearly. I have recently told my dad that I would like to submit my DA letter after all these years. His advice to me was that I would only be making trouble for my family. Whereas he says that he would never shun me, he says that we would no longer be able to go out to eat together because somebody from the cong would be sure to see us. He feels that could cause trouble for him and mom. So, I have remained silent.

Thanks for your input Cruzan. I may have to break down and submit that letter after all.

Hugs,

Robyn

nowisee

hi robdar,

i too liked cruzanheart's advice.

in one of my many lives since leaving wts in l976 (could that be a coincidence right after l975?) i owned and ran a new age bookstore (yes, really). i ran psychic fairs (i know, i know). one night i had a dream that some jws came for psychic readings wanting to know what was going to happen in the world. i just kept thinking in my dream, what are they doing here, what are they doing here.

i often will have dreams about things in my past that are not currently part of my life - i don't think its too unusual when these things have played such significant roles in your experience.

usually i just observe. if a dream is particularly troubling (not usually but once in a while) then i will try to discover why. sometimes journaling helps.

best wishes, robdar. nowisee

MoeJoJoJo

Hi robyn, sometimes I dream that I'm back at the KH and I am supposed to give a theocratic school talk that night that I didn't prepare for. I really hated giving talks, I hated that more than going out in field service. I don't remember my dreams as vividly as you remembered yours.

Robdar

Nowisee,

Are you still into "new age" philosophies? We could talk for hours. I wouldn't mind hearing some of your experiences.

MoeJo,

I take it you are a former brother, then. I would have hated giving talks too. Isn't it good to be free?

Thanks for posting yall.

Love,

Robyn

nowisee

hi again.

not sure what you mean by "new age philosophies" since they tend to run the gamut. from witchcraft to yoga, from aliens to ecology, from aa recovery to channeling, from astrology to nlp and on and on.

i have divorced myself from much of it. became pretty disgusted with the psychics and people who patronized them. thought many were dishonest doing it for money and would try to milk the people; many of the people were unbalanced, emotionally disturbed. needed therapy, not psychics!

i suppose if there is anything to which i still subscribe (and indeed it is what led me into "the new age") it is the holistic view of health.

i did have interesting experiences though.

best wishes, nowisee

Robdar

became pretty disgusted with the psychics and people who patronized them. thought many were dishonest doing it for money and would try to milk the people; many of the people were unbalanced, emotionally disturbed. needed therapy, not psychics!

Nowisee,

My sentiments, exactly. I am also into wholistic health but feel that the field is full of snake oil salesman who take advantage of sick, depressed people and so the buyers should beware.

What really turned me off to the "new age" was how superior everybody thought that they were. Not much of a sense of humor among that crowd. And all the in-fighting too...it seems that each little "demigod" was looking for a following. Utter BS is what I found.

I was right, I could talk to you for hours about our experiences. Thanks for replying.

Robyn

heathen

robdar-- As a dream interpreter all I can say is when women dream of talking cats it means they are sexually repressed . lol

Robdar

robdar-- As a dream interpreter all I can say is when women dream of talking cats it means they are sexually repressed . lol

Heathen,

Amen to that. It's no secret that I'm not getting any. This divorce is rough. Not that I got that much before we filed. LOL

Thanks for your response.

Love,

Robyn

Last Night's Nightmare

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