My Memorial Experience

by sandy 13 Replies latest jw friends

  • sandy
    sandy

    was not all that exciting. I went to a neighboring congregation. I was going to go to my old cong. but thanks to "Satan" I somehoe locked my car keys in my room. I swear I didn't do it on purpose.

    Everyone was gone so I had to wait for my mother to come home with the spare key to my room.

    While at the memorial I saw a girl I used to study with. I was glad to see her she is such a sweet girl.

    I talked to her afterwards and she was telling me all about her life thus far. She is now studying with a girl from that particular congregation. She said she has quit all the immoral stuff she was doing and is more serious about serving Jehovah now than ever. She said has to be since we are so close to the "End".

    I asked her the End of What? LOL, just kidding I didn't have the gutz to say that.

    Well at the end of our conversation she said I always think about you. I want to thank you you are the one who is responsible for me being here. Jehovah used you to find me. Blah Blah Blah Blah..................

    I felt a little guilty because I played the role as an Active JW. I didn't want to break this girl's heart by telling her I haven't stepped foot in the kingdom hall for 4 years until tonight. I lied. I went once for my Uncle's funeral talk. That doesn't count though.

    She introduced me to the girl who is currently studying with her. I know the girl and she remembered me and then asked me what hall I am going to now. When I answered her by naming my old hall she looked at me kind of funny.

    She has friends in my old hall and probably wondered why she never seen me there or out on field service where all the congregations meet on Saturday mornings. LOL

    Has anybody else ever did this. Acted like you are still an active witness?

  • DJ
    DJ
    I haven't stepped foot in the kingdom hall for 4 years until tonight

    I'm still trying to figure out why you went back..

  • Swan
    Swan

    Don't worry about it Sandy. It is sometimes part of the slow fade to play a part and say things you don't really agree with anymore. It is part of the conditioning you were exposed to. It is what we were taught. As you learn more and more you will become bolder and more outspoken.

    Tammy

  • sandy
    sandy

    I went to the memorial last night to keep my parents quiet. I am not ready to deal with them telling me I am wrong for not going.

    I noticed the speaker during his closing prayer when he said blah blah blah blah......... in this time of the end...

    He didn't sound too convinced or heartfelt. Maybe I was reading into it too much.

  • JamesThomas
    JamesThomas

    Sandy, Personally, I feel you did the loving and compassionate thing by not telling your friend your present feelings and beliefs. It was a very special night for her, the Memorial and all. There is a time to be outspoken and a time to be silently kind. Good for you. JamesT

  • Prisca
    Prisca

    When I answered her by naming my old hall she looked at me kind of funny.

    She has friends in my old hall and probably wondered why she never seen me there or out on field service where all the congregations meet on Saturday mornings. LOL

    No doubt her friends in your old congregation have spoken of you, quite possibly saying how you haven't been to a meeting in 4 years. And then she hears you talking of your old Hall as if you've never left?

    I can perfectly understand why you didn't want to upset the apple cart. I doubt I could ever set foot inside another KH ever again, though.

  • gitasatsangha
    gitasatsangha

    Fading solves nothing at best it only leads to a better breaking-away solution.

  • heathen
    heathen

    I couldn't help but visit the local cong last night ,just to see if there was any protesting and such . There was none . It was pretty packed and people did talk to me even tho I was only wearing a shirt and jeans I was never a dub but still don't have suits . I listened to the talk on who the 144 thousand were and the purpose of being there and such but they still make no sense as to why they show up and not eat or drink anything . I again left as they were praying over the bread and wine as I did last year .When I left there was a black guy walking in so I said to him to hurry he was going to miss the bread and wine but to remember not to eat any of it. lol

  • mattnoel
    mattnoel

    Sandy, what you have to remember though is, why should you have to go to meetings to keep people happy. What will be next, "Oh there is a special meeting on sunday, will you come ?" and so on.

  • rocketman
    rocketman

    I still do. Though I attend very infrequently, I am afraid to rock the boat family-wise and tell them I hardly attend.

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