Lifesnotover, you have like JWs and all religious people, been motivated by unnecessary guilt. Religion trades in guilt!
Let me encourage you to realize that instead of guilt you can congratulate yourself for having had the courage to give up the dreadful JW cult and your old life and now you can redeem your liberty to enjoy your life as a free human agent.
As Flipper says it is indeed hard to rid ourselves of this indoctrination and it does take time but eventually you will lose the guilt and you will become a whole and happy individual......... if you aim for it!
All the best to you, you can do it!.