i had been away from jws for 27 years and still felt some residual something.....as you described. so don't feel bad! you have barely been away a year. i wonder why you and your husband have not discussed your feelings about it.....
anyway, since i found this site early in march, i have found so much joy and contentment and validation in sharing experiences with people who understand. hopefully it will be the same for you.
I know just what you mean! My husband now says he's a secular humanist. I'm either an agnostic with pagan leanings or a pagan with agnostic leanings (depends on the day ).