Realizing life is short is the reason why I don't give a crap anymore. I am self-disassociated. I have not done so formally. Life is too short to be screwing around in a false religion.
My heart goes out to those whom because of financial or family obligations, have to stay in for the time. That has to be torture on the mind to "play the game" with family and friends.
Myself, if I get caught doing something wrong I will simply tell them to eat me. They have no power. They are just men running a publishing house of lies. Nothing more. 😊