I'll be honest. I USED to fear the elders.. terribly. I mean, I was so scared I thought I used the restroom on myself (in my suit..LOL) whenever I went to the kingdom hall to tell them what I was hearing. It was horrible. And what was WORSE.. was having to go to my Father through my Son and having to continually confess my FEAR before Him and wondering what He was going to say to me. It was the worst feeling in the world to be afraid of men.. and on top of that, having to go tell my Lord that I did not do what He asked of me.
Now, due to a year of abuse, persecution, fear, hate, pain with tears, feeling alone and wanting affection but being denied it physically, and hated because of "who I am" and who someone "is not," I now DON'T CARE. I have been abused and persectued so badly that ANYTHING that the elders can do to me will have NO EFFECT on me. I can now tell them freely and with love anything the Holy Spirit says to me to tell them. Whatever it was that caused me to fear them is GONE. I been through so much now it has ironically made me stronger in my Lord and more useful to Him. I can now do almost anything He tells me and not have to think "Oh, I can't do that.. i'm afraid." I have nothing to fear. Even if they killed me in the flesh, believe me, they'd probably be doing me a favor.
But, for the sake of them NOT being able to say "Well, no one told us," on Judgement Day, I WANT to live to give them a THOROUGH witness to "who" they are, and "who they are not" and who the REAL truth is, and what the REAL good news from heaven is. Indeed, they will be without excuse.
Peace to you,
Aaron