((((((((((((((Tracy, Brenda, JWsons)))))))))) thank you so much for your support, old friends, it really truly did help me get through yesterday.
Today, I feel as if I have a hangover, though I didn't touch a drop. My head pounds, maybe it's the fact I was too numb to cry, and need to have a good one and get it over with. But we'll see. Because of friends on and off the board, my heart is much, much less heavy today. I am so blessed.
Also a big huge hug to a very dear friend here (he knows who he is!) who called me last night, just feeling the support of his friendship, and the friendship of those who have posted here, helped more than you know, and more than I imagined possible. Taking the 'aloneness' out of events like this, removing the isolation and realizing that thousands of people are in the same situation...helps you keep your perspective. It's not that I was sitting there feeling sorry for myself, (honestly!) I guess I've finally learned that you have to get this stuff out as it happens, for me putting it into words and just knowing someone else has seen it is very validating. Letting it ride around inside my head bottled up...just prolongs the agony.
I'll spend a quiet day today, gratefully reflecting on the kindness you've all shown me here and hopefully catching up on some e mails. My new e mail address is [email protected] if anyone wants to let me know what's new with them.
I've missed so many of you, so much more than I had realized. Simon, Angharad, thank you again for this place. I hope to help others here as much as you've all helped me.
thanks again, everyone.
love,
essie
ps.JWsons, the asthma still bites. just finished another round of steroids after a bout of pneumonia. it's always something, you know? Please write and let me know how you've been!
and Tracy, give your hubby a big hello from me, please! I always ask for updates on how you two are from your sweet sister :)
