Hi there scared and lonely
Just like in the kingdom hall , they are no guarantees. You can marry a pioneer sister, a bethelite , what ever, and end up with an awful person.
Well it's that way here too.
In fact you need to learn this one fast because this is just life. We were taught to lower our guard down while being around the brothers . You may feel you can do that here, Well, you cant, not without risks.
I would not say anything of a private nature anymore, [in P.M. , things can get shared around] especially to the ones demanding it. that is just to rich :-(
You have the opportunity to meet some nice and not so nice people here, if you want.
I would get help from a private source and maybe just general support from likeminded people here. Some times the less you say publicly, the better. Be careful when writing when your emotions are running high. your judgement goes out the door.
Take care of yourself
eva