Who of us has ever thought, 'What's the point? I'm going to die anyway'

by Funchback 12 Replies latest watchtower beliefs

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  Funchback

  When I truly believed the JWs had the truth, I usually reverted back to 'What's the point? I'm going to die anyway' as a way to justify for doing so-called bad things or not doing so-called good things in JW land.

  • I shouldn't be watching this R-rated movie. (Why stop? I'm going to die at Armageddon anyway).
  • I don't feel like attending the meeting today. (Why bother going? You're gonna be bird food come Armageddon time).
  • Normal sexual urges? (You might as well pleasure yourself or bang someone because Jah-Jah is going to destroy you).
  • Oh, no. Why did I write on my report that I did 20 hours of field service when only I did 4? (Oh, well. It doesn't matter because Almighty Jehovah will utterly destroy me).
    
    

  Did you all think like this too? As pale.emperor nicely demonstrated in another thread, the guilt one feels for actions, and inactions, are inconceivable...unless you have lived through it.

  It's no wonder I never advanced beyond sound guy and mic holder: my guilt ultimately held be back.

  But...My guilt is also what led me to explore the truth about The Truth (You might as well do some research. You're going to die anyway).
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  LoveUniHateExams

  I shouldn't be watching this R-rated movie. (Why stop? I'm going to die at Armageddon anyway) - yes, I thought this.

  Also, I once bought an R-rated movie (a horror film). I watched it a few times over the weekend, then threw it away several days later.

  The WT can really screw people up.
  
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  The Rebel

  Yes the organisation was like a cat chasing its prey, one guilt trip after another. We were made to feel like worthless little insects. Now I have left I feel as free as a bird, flying over the Himalayas.
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  Funchback

  LoveUniHateExams

  I once bought an R-rated movie (a horror film). I watched it a few times over the weekend, then threw it away several days later.
  

  Wow! I can totally relate.
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  Funchback

  The Rebel

  Now I have left I feel as free as a bird, flying over the Himalayas.
  

  Ain't that the real truth? I am up there with you.
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  Vanderhoven7

  "If after the manner of men I have fought with beasts at Ephesus, what advantageth it me, if the dead rise not? let us eat and drink [and let the party brgin]; for to morrow we die." I Cor. 15:32
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  stan livedeath

  what is an R rated film ?--i'm in the UK
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  LoveUniHateExams

  what is an R rated film? - a film that carries an 18 certificate.
  
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  scratchme1010

  But...My guilt is also what led me to explore the truth about The Truth (You might as well do some research. You're going to die anyway).
  

  That's not exactly how it went in my case. I just couldn't care less; I just had no interest in any of their nonsense, plus I wasn't treated in a way that enticed me to give them a chance.

  Also, I wanted to point that guilt may be one thing, but maybe subconsciously you knew that the whole thing was nonsense, or maybe you knew that it's not for you.
  
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  prologos

  the probability of dying anyway, the very next year even, gets better and better, as one approaches ~90. so, I am packing a lot of serious fun living into the moments I pass through. not bitter, better.

  obviously I consider writing, reading here serious fun. thank you Simon.

  p.s. I don't want to die just any old way, I just want to die really really old. anyway.