You know how when your asked to talk about something your not interested in how annoying it is, or difficult to debate something from the opposite side of your view. After learning ttatt I've come to regard the nonsense the org spouts as quite evil then to have to give parts about how great it is makes me hate it that much more.
Story aside, what might you say to the elders to get them to dismiss it or get off your back if you told them your heart's not in it any more?
Not the obvious it's a stupid hypocritical cult that needs to be wiped from the face of the earth.