The nicest and kindest JW's seem to be the ones who are the least connected and active in the congregation.
I've been trying to fade and been missing quite a few meetings.
Of course my wife's still loyal as ever if not more so since I've awoken to TTATT.
Every mid-week and Sunday meeting that I miss she gives me the a bit of a silent treatment for.
She's become more and more friendly with a regular pioneer, younger than she is and wife of an elder, this to the letting go of regular contact with former best friends in the 0rganization, whom she was closest to but were and aren't as active and regular at meetings and field service.
It's a crying shame, I'm closer and kinder to her old friends, keeping in touch through facebook posts now and then, encouraging them through the hardships, rejoicing with them during happy moments, graduations, welcoming a new child to the world, marriages, new jobs and what-not.
She has become a serious shunner, staying away from a lot of folks we were close to because they're not good association.
She's drunk the whole cup of kool-aid and anything I say that's remotely negative towards the 0rganization is met with stern retorts and accusations I'm apostate sounding.
And yet, she's still the kind hearted, loving person she used to be. It's like she has a WT hat she dons and it changes her mind, her outlook, her behavior. When dealing with neighbors, with people outside the KH, she's as nice as could be and I know this kind-heartedness is genuine--But it's been hi-jacked by this F'ing cult.
They're controlling her nice qualities and using them as a tool to attract those outside and to castigate those not towing the line inside the cult by having her hold back her natural love and kindness from the less active ones.
But these not so active, not so indoctrinated folks are the ones who are the most human and real. These are the ones who aren't good enough for the 0rganization! What a perversion of a religion!
Man I hate this F'ing cult!