That was totally me also. I did everything I was told and never questioned a thing. I also went to a few JW parties and was appalled at how worldly they got, many of the elders kids were so drunk it was unreal. One party I went to the pioneer mom was there, the dad was not a JW but the pioneer mom had alcohol and you could drink as much as you wanted. I was just so shocked and felt so betrayed. One JW pioneer did a pole dance and of course all the guys were all over her. One of the elder son's who could not walk as he was so drunk tried to drive home and another elder kid took his car keys away they wound up in a fight in the front yard.
It was sort of surreal. The place I worked had a employee party and I was forced to go to keep my job, I felt like I was betraying Jehovah for associating for the world and yet I had the best time, there was no drinking and just young people fun.
My gut always told me something was wrong but of course I never listened to my gut. One of my main wises was to go to other churches and just see for myself how horrible they were instead of being told that they were but of course I was to goody, goody, two shoes to do that as it was breaking Jehovah's law to ever set foot in a church.
I do not regret that I did not party as that was and is just not me, but I do regret that I did not have a life, have fun, go house back ridding, go bike ridding, jogging, spend a Saturday morning in a coffee shop reading a book.
All of those things were forbidden, seriously forbidden as if you had time to read you should be reading a JW product, if you took a day to go on a bike ride you could have used it to go in service and who knew that a Angle was wanting you to call on a home and save someone but you selfishly spent you time enjoying yourself when lives were at stake.
I bought into all the garbage and never enjoyed my youth. I live in total regret.
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