I want your name - love it and lovely to hear from you.
You're 42 - so young and so much life ahead of you. So pleased you've found this discussion forum helpful. You seem grounded and taking things steadily. Way to go.
There is no urgency, no emergency.
Whereas JWs will panic themselves and others into a state of terror and expect sensible decisions, you do not have to follow that mindless mentality.
Hope you stay on board!