Was I the only one who secretly dreaded the new system of things a little bit when I was a believing witness? Of course I felt very guilty, because of all the sick and heartbroken people who needed a perfect world to live in. But there are a lot of nice parts of life I was going to secretly miss. Like amusement parks, “worldly music”, movies and tv shows, technology, go karts, riding scooters, cars, and even the “worldly” people around me I was going to miss, because it was honestly nice to get away from witnesses sometimes. Especially when I was tired of self righteous opinions and getting judged, it was relieving to be around people at work and talk about guys, sex, tv shows, or politics without worrying about the repercussions. I think at the time, I didn’t even realize I felt this way about worldly people, it was more sub conscience.
I was also dreading the new system because I knew that god would be a lot harsher and more strict, and I thought that maybe even thinking a dirty or negative thought could turn me into burnt toast from a lightning bolt.
Was it just me, or were you guys looking forward to it?