Sorry you're having a down day, Azzy. And I'm really sorry that I can't do anything to help you except to say that I feel ya and am thinking about you.
It's because of people like you and my sisters that I'm really protective and supportive of my daughter. Not enough people get the support they need from parents and other older family members who should be there for them. Call me sexist, but I favor little girls just a little bit over boys and give them extra support, love and attention.
Hang in there, Sis. Life gets better.