(((((((((Scooby))))))))) So sorry to see you hurting like this.
No, you may never know if it a contributing factor in the divorce, but from you description, I doubt it.
I remember when I finally had the courage to lurk on this board, I would cringe at the talk of apostate, and apostafests.... oh the horrors of the idea LOL. My sister mentioned wanting to go to one, and my imagination ran wild. Soon I realized that I was pretty much free of the cult mentality that I had, I opened my eyes to the fear that had been instilled in me all those years, it was nothing but a control tactic. Now I can't wait to go to a HUGE fest and meet more of these great people here.