Nothing could make me go back, and after all these years I have nightmares that I went back. Horrible nighmares that feel like I sold my soul to the mythical devil. Shortly before I DA'd an elder told me that if I screw up, the congregation would never forgive me-and boy did I "screw up". This is the same elder who is a dentist and he slapped my son across the face for crying when he had a tooth pulled. My son didn't tell me for many years because he knew I'd raise the roof. He was only 5 and his baby tooth wouldn't come out after the permanent tooth came in. We were still among the "faithful" at the time and that bastard slapped him across the face!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. This is also the same elder who tried to make "sheparding" calls when I stopped coming to meetings and before I DA'd. He screamed at me and shamed me and I ran out of my own house to get away from him. So I repeat NOTHING could make me go back.