I always hated marijuana, even in the time I left JW, which was 6 years ago I hated it, until recently. I decided to try it out and got my medical card. I was nervous and uncomfortable but I made it into a dispensary and purchased a few grams of marijuana. The first few times I smoked, I felt a numbing sensation over my body but it wasn't the high I was expecting. Not until my second time did I experience that high.
The third time was the scariest moment in my life because I had a panic attack. I was super paranoid and I thought I was going to die. Mind you, I was alone, which is discouraged for first time smokers. I did calm myself down through that episode. A few days ago, I smoked and experienced what @DarioKehl mentioned. I connect it to my third eye opening since It has made me realize that I'm not where I want to be since leaving JW. I've had a cold hard look at myself. This drug has been a positive for me