ok... paranoia is understood... the question was raised to get the names. To know what is said... no I am not on the inside... but I am working on it. In case you havent noticed these are quite simple minded people. It won't take much. Give me a year at best. Overnight I went from out-cast, to bible study, to meeting, to assembly.I have the trust of some distant family, and that is a start.
very simple... you just sit there in the little back room with the elders, and plead your case. Tell em how sorry you are, and far you are willing to go to prove yourself. Yes I sit through the drivel, and b.s. and I take the guilt and shame. I can shed tears at the drop of a hat. Just be dramatic.
and no... I am not explaining or justifying myself to you. I just am not going to sit here and bitch about the thing and not do anything. If I fail... then I fail. I mean what did you expect, given the whole situation? that I was a traveling overseer? Give me some time.. these things must happen slowly...
Intsead of accusations and inuendos and paranoia .... perhaps the two of you can provide me with some MORE information that can help... or do you plan to just sit there in that chair and watch this happen? And cry on each other's shoulder about the bad ol people who are destroying your lives.. . wait on someone else to handle it. Am I pissing someone off? .... Good.. do something about it... go to a meeting and pick up the damn re-written bible they use, and find a way to use it against them....
Send me names. send me useful information. tell me what I may have missed in the last fifteen years of my absence... what you think they are going to tell me all that? This thing is only beginning. It will take time. the lawsuits, and newspaper articles, and publicity will only make them stronger. more bonded. more secretive.
take some of those balls you are using to attack me about it... and put it to a little constructive deception... Invite them into your home. Be nice. Let them bring you back into the "fold" and when you get in there.. do all the damage that you can.
I have to start somewhere... and I thought given all the knowlege that I find on this board, that someone could provide some USEFULL information. I see though they have you running scared. Dont feel like too big a chicken though... it took me 15 years... after you get past your fear of them, perhaps YOU can do something too.